
As writers, we often romanticize the horrors of war. The good guy triumphs and the bad guy dies as he deserves. The warrior sees the horror of war, but he shakes it off because he’s the hero who always gets the girl. He’s the huge muscle man who can wield a sword and a shield like Flash Gordon. His eyes glare with superhuman strength and nothing gets in his way. He fears no man or beast, but fights whomever stands before him. He grabs the damsel by the waist, she kisses him and off they fly, swinging away from the bad guy, who lifts his sword, cursing his foe.
But what does reality say about war? It’s bloody, heartbreaking, horrifying.
My manager wanted to celebrate Administrative Assistant Day with her admin staff and took us out to lunch today. So as we sat around the table chit-chatting, someone asked my other coworker about her 19 year old son who is a soldier in Afghanistan. She paused, swallowed and searched for the words:
“Well,” pause,. . . hoping it’s something silly and small, but feeling a fist growing in my stomach, “He called me last week to say they were out on patrol and their convoy hit an IED. It killed his friend.” Horrified!!!! Then she said his words that changed the way I see war.
“Mom, I want to come home.”
We sat stunned as the realization that most of our soldiers are children, 18-19 year old kids forced to witness a grown-up world. Someone said, “I don’t know how these kids do it.” The mother said, she didn’t know what to say to him. There were no trumpets blowing, no parades, no spitting on the ground and lifting swords in triumph. Nope, just a little boy saying, Mom, I don’t want to be here anymore.
As I let her words sink in, I thought of stories I have read about the medieval soldier who shrugs off the death of friends with a simple “Farewell, my friend” and then he walks off into the sunset with a happy thought of his dead comrades and the fun times they experienced. I wonder how many soldiers said to themselves, I want to go home. I wonder how many wished their mothers were with them.
That’s the reality of any war, from Adam and Eve to the present day, I want to come home.
I don’t know if I can ever write the path of the hero again without thinking of this young man, forced to witness death at such an early age. My coworker said she hasn’t heard from him yet, but I believe he’s out there today, guarding the convoys and doing his job. But with scars that we as writers must see and respect in our characters. To not allow the character to witness the horror of wars is like telling this 19 year old soldier to get over it. He can’t and it will never leave him.
That little boy grew up in one horrifying moment and we as writers must also allow our characters to grow up. Allow them the respect of witnessing death and the horrors of losing good friends to enemies who want them dead, of the scars war creates and how it changes lives forever. To deny them this rite of passage is to kill the story, making it hollow and dull and making a character who isn’t human, not to mention disrespecting the soldiers who survived. Humanity sometimes is hard and difficult to bear, but we as writers, must bear that burden and bring it to life, no matter how painful. Even if it means the huge muscle man who wields the sword and shield says to his mother, I just want to come home, mom.













